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When A day is Passed by

2011-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

When a day is passed by, im worried
for the life that i will meet ahead...

when a year is passed by, im scared
for the day that my birthday comes...

i'm not a teenager anymore but still i can't get
what I wanted most in my life - a secured future
not only for me but for my family as well...

It's not easy to soar up high ALONE in this
complicated world without YOU.
YOU are my only TRUE FRIEND that I can LEAN on.

I just hope I can bear it till the end...
Show me your Mercy My LORD and I wish I will have more CHRISTMAS to celebrate your BIRTHDAY with YOU in this EARTH!!!

So that I will have more time to solve
the complicated equation of LIFE...

HAPPY Birthday!

Hanggang Pangarap Na Lang

2011-09-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

Ang bawat araw ay hungkag.Walang buhay, malungkot at parating mag isa. Nakakasawa, walang pagbabago...pasok sa trabaho sa umaga, uwi sa gabi, or trabaho sa gabi at uwi sa umaga.Parang nakaprogram na ang bawat galaw...

At sa pagitan ng mga minutong yaon...nandun ka, laging sumisiksik. Kumusta na kaya siya. Masaya marahil. Sana ganon din ako. Hindi na iniisip ang mga bagay na wala. Ang ngayon o ang kinabukasan. Sana'y may katuwang ako sa pag abot ng mga pangarap. Kaso wala eh...Hanggang pangarap na lang. Lumalakad ang panahon subalit di ako makausad.Hanggang dito na lang siguro ang lahat.

I miss you

2011-07-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

I don't care whom you really with for the rest of your life. A little attention is enough even its a one way love.Don't deny me. It would break my heart in pain. Life is short, it olds day by day.Hope that we enjoy the friendship that we build together when we're still young. Let us continue the memories of exchanging laughter, still have time to walk side by side and hope that in our busy time, no matter where you are, whatever you do, just don't forget to say hi!Because a word from you will fullfill the emptyness of being alone.I miss you.

People change.Its would be better if its me. So that I could not feel the pain.But as of now how could I forget you, I could not resist the temptation of missing you every seconds of the day.Your always running in my mind.

It's Hard To Love

2011-05-31T01:33:00.002+08:00

Nagsimula sa pagiging magkaibigan...
Magkasamang kumakain...
Magkasabay umuwi...
Library ang kapwa tambayan...
Matalino...
higit sa lahat mabait...
dahil naging malapit sakin...
sa kabila ng lungkot ng pag iisa...
napangingiti nya ako araw araw...
at dahil sa kanya'y naranasan ko ang magkaroon ng kaibigan.

kaya naman nahulog ang loob ko...
kaya palihim kong minahal...
dahil alam kong ako lang ang nagmamahal...
ang mahalaga masaya ako pag kasama sya.
Ngunit mailap sakin ang kapalaran
Magkasama pa sana tayo ngayon hanggang sa loob ng apat na taon
kung di lang ako natigil sa pag aaral
lalalim pa sana ang ating pinagsamahan

Nyayon...kailangan kong magpatuloy
ng walang ngiti at inspirasyon
Hindi nga kita kasama subalit
sa isipan ko'y nakaukit ka na.
Makakalimutan pa ba kita?

The Start of a New Path

2011-05-02T05:35:00.001+08:00

May 26, 2010, a new path of my life has been open.I thought it would never come true but at least I managed to enroll at STI Computer College in this date.Mix of emotions of excitement and fear. Excitement because this is my dream come true to study Computer Science since I was graduated for a 2 year vocational course. This is also my dream to finish a Bachelor course through self supporting.Fear because of financial problem, a problem of many self supporting students nowadays. Fear of my health because I can only have two, three, four up to six hours of sleep in a day or no sleep at all. My work as a Computer Technician in a computer shop is 12 hours at night shift that can reduce to 8 hours since my classes for the next day is whole day from 7:00 AM to 7:00 PM.If my classes for the next day start at 10:00 AM, I can have 7:00 PM to 7:00 AM work(12 hours). If I can or should I say I must pursue a 12 hours working just to sustain my financial needs. The truth if not 12 hours, I cannot finish even the first semestral break of this year....for a salary of 250/day for 12 hours. For 8 hours work it could be 166 or more per day which is not enough to save 15000 for 4 months. This is a suicidal decision that I made for my life.
Whatever life comes ahead...even a greater number of sorrows, hope I will pass it. The important is I'm happy and I'm enjoying it.
When it comes to my parent...they need me. They're just a plain housewife and a laborer in a farm.They are already nearer to sixties, already old to look for their own food. What more can I give? I AM THE OLDEST OF THREE CHILDREN..,the second son, have been married, the 3rd daughter-my only sister could be the only one who could take care of my parents....

A Studies That Will Never Come True

2011-05-02T05:34:00.000+08:00

I am just an ordinary citizen who has an aim of becoming an astronomer someday....a scientist or maybe an inventor.Wahhhh. You think I am a talented person? No I'm not. I'm just applying everything I've learned from school, community and those that circled me. Talent is not only at birth, It is also on what is your purpose, on what you accomplished, on what do you want and on what do you do on your spare time. Hobbies is the one that driven your talent. That's why I want to study. Study this, study that, study everything as long as I believe that I can, except from the word "afford" because it is my problem.
I plan to study little by little through a ladderized coursed. I managed to study a 2 year course Computer Technician through Private Education Student Financial Assistant (PESFA) scholarship by TESDA in a private school in Naga City. I was very happy when I was graduated that time even though that day is just like an ordinary day to me because after returning home(boarding house) with my mother from a graduation ceremony, we went to sleep. I was hoping that I can continue my studies in Manila for a Bachelor degree as a working student but I was very dismay and almost losing hope after Ive seen the tuition fee in every school. But what caught to my attention is a public University named Polytechnic University of the Philippines (PUP). They offered only P11.00 pesos tuition fee.A very low tuition fee compared to a private school with P700 to P2000 depending on your course. Then after having a permanent work with a very low salary I started saving it for my dreams that someday I will be admit and study in this university.
I was graduated for 2 year course last March 2002 and now is 2010.At last my dream would be fulfill. But when I inquire to this University, I've learned that me myself are forbidden to study there. Only freshmen that do not enter in any college or universities, transferring students of the same course with one Year of studies and a baccalaureate degree holder are welcome to admit. They said It is the rule of their University and maybe I can be admitted in other school (Private) with a case like me is admitting. Nais ko pa sanang sumagot noon "Alam nyo po ba kung bakit dito ko gustong mag aral? Dahil this is only the University that I can afford? Sa tingin nyo po ba kaya kong mapag aral ang sarili ko doon?", but I didn't say it...Its useless and unethical. Everything is clear to me. I can't study anymore in this University.
So what do I do? Life must go on. Still working and still dreaming. Maybe tomorrow everything will be in reverse, everything will be different in the future...
But I'm already old...This is my problem....I hope I am always young so that there's no space for the word "rush" to me.

Hope

2011-05-02T05:31:00.000+08:00

Since I was a boy, my mother always give me an advice every time I commit mistake or every time I have a wrong doing .Until now I keep that advice in my everyday life. Because of that I’ve always wanted to be a good boy in order that my mother will be proud of me. Even until now, I want people seen me as a good child. I wanted to be a good example not only with my brother es and sisters but for the peoples around me and a good citizen for my country. As long as I could, I take everything by myself just not to let anyone down.Even in the hardest time I would rather keep it secret than to let everyone know. I don't trust anybody. I did’nt shout the pain, I keep it to hide in my heart because I’d prefer to be alone and heal it by time.
All this years, I’ve never been have a true friend. Even in the past, I’ve never find happiness with others.Only in my own-on what I have done, on what I have finished and on what I have fulfill. I focused myself on studying ,i treasured every books I read,every information I’ve gained and every lesson they teach me everyday just to be the best in the class and just to be a good example of my fellow student.
The truth, I’ve never find happiness from others, I only find it on my own.I don't know how far this could be but I know that it will last only when the fulfillment of my dreams is just around the corner.
Time is passing by.It’s to fast for me and I can’t hold or pause it.As of now, I can say I’m wasting my time.Waiting for the days to pass by without nothing left but a footprint.The footprints of hardships and an endless sorrow.My life is so hard but as long as I’m alive, as long as my heartbeat is pumping and as long as I am in need, hope is still there...A hope that will vanish only by TIME.

To someone kono

2011-05-02T05:28:00.001+08:00

Everytime I see you, you're always give me a line of smile in my face.Problems has been set aside and temporarily forgotten.Eventhough I am the only one who loves you, Im still happy and contented as of now.Mahal na kasi bigas, wala akong ipapalamon sayo....!!!!joke....

Who Am I

2011-05-02T05:25:00.000+08:00

Electronic lover,math lover,Computer lover,addict reader, and a knowledge hunter are words that are pointed to my character.Curiosity is the cause why I need to know all things.I always have the courage to research what comes out a question into my mind.I have something to search in an empty space in which even me would not know it.But one thing is for sure,I want to search something different,somethings informative,someone's amazing,somewhat wonderful to my eyes a nd soul.
In every days that are given by God is always very important.That's why as long as I have an eyes to see,a hand to do work,and a brain to think,I always find a way to search an additional information to feed my mind.Even just a grains of information,pag naipon nama'y isang karunungang maipagmamalaki ko balang araw.

My My Biography

2011-05-02T05:24:00.000+08:00

Alvin Tarvina Borromeo Decelo Moreno Pastor Panuncio Pesimo Bedes are the race running out in my blood.Im the oldest son in our family of three childreen.A person whom because of learned from books,family and poverty has full of ambitions,dreams and hope.It's inspire me those that are being well known because of their important contribution in the field of science and technology.
I came from a responsible and God fearing family whom does'nt have any belonging's kundi ang amin aming mga sarili.My father's occupation is only a laborer in a farm and my mother is only a plain housewife.Hence they all grown me well and educated and because of love we still intact in richer or poorer until now.
Through TESDA, I finished 2 Years Computer Technician.I do all kind of being a thrift person specially in food,no gimmick,just to sustain my studies.Furthermore, the fruits of my perseverance has came and finish with full of colors.But sometimes "enough has no end".For me those knowledge I've gained from that studies is not enough to sustain my hungry mind.Maybe there's missing.And it came in my mind that I want to study again ant to finish a bachelor course but because of lack of money, those dreams is still a dreams until now.
Time Brings...I need to leave my family,my childhood birthplace just to look for my good fortune and if succeed, even a little by little I can now help with my parents to ease the pain of sorrow in their life.
Now Im here, could be working,could be searching for a job and could be no more job.Still living with the challenges of life and has not yet losing hope.I'm always dreaming that at the back of the dark clouds,there's always a sun that will give his bright shining light.

Working Student Part 4

2011-03-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

Sa wakas nakaraos din ako.Nakahinga ng maluwag. Pagdating na pagdating ko kasi kanina from school....bagsak ang katawan....Alam ko kasing huling bisita ko na iyon sa school. Katatapos ko lang kasi ng depend tungkol sa product sa business concept subject namin sa school at yon din and natitirang professor na pipirma sa aking final permit kaya sabi ko nakaraos din....kagabi halos wala na akong maisulat habang kinokumpleto ang documentation about sa product na cellphone ang napili ng aming grupo....which is ako ang pumili non and ako din ang gumastos and ako din ang gumawa....parang wala lang ni piso wala silang binitawan...ang sama naman non.

Well ok lang ang importante nairaos ko ang depend....kahit wala akong long sleeves...nakihiram na lang ako sa school sa nga natapos na ka classmate ko na mag depend....Ihiniram ako ng ka grupo ko kasi samin sa subject na iyon ni isa eh wala akong ka close....irregular kasi ako...So ahead na sila sa akin ng maybe one sem.Kagabi lang kasi iniisip ko kung pwede ang black polo shirts na susuutin...pero yun talaga sinuot ko nang pumasok ako sa school. Naiwanan ko pa nga ang ID ko sa kamamadali. Buti na lang pinapaso ako ng guwardiya.Tinanong lang ako kung sino ang titser ko...

Sa pag aaral kong ito isa sa mga natutunan ko, sa oras ng kagipitan wala kang ibang makakapitan kundi ang sariling paraan, hindi kaibigan....ang kaibigan nandyan lang yan nag tetext pag may kailangan.

Nasabi ko palang huli ko nang punta sa school. Siguro punta na lang ako doon para kumuha ng grades kasi ayaw na akong payagan ng amo ko na mag aral pa ako...Pinapapili na ako kung mag aaral ako o magta trabaho. Pinili ko na lang ang trabaho kesa naman pag aaral na wala naman akong maitutustus kung walang trabaho. Wala naman kasi akong makuhang ibang trabaho. Sana Call Center. Call center lang talaga...kaso babagsak ako sa english.Yun ang problema ko. Parang di na ako makakagawa ng paraan para makapag aral muli. Parang di na ako makakapag patuloy pa.

"Alvin, kung ginagawa mong library itong shop at hindi mo ginagawa trabaho mo mabuti pa nga concentrate ka na lang sa pag aaral at hahanap na lang ako ng iba. Lagi na lang ganito na lagi ka dapat pagsabihan."8:57AM 19-Mar-11.

Yan ang eksaktong text message na natanggap ko sa aking amo. Marami na kasi ang hindi magamit na computer. Hindi ko na kasi maasikaso ng maayos kasi sa mga documentation at at poro project sa limang subject ko sa school ngayong sem na ito. Nadagdag pa yong yong PC na di naman sira pero di magamit dahil ayaw mag bukas ng monitor....nagloko yong AVR dahil madumi na or na dislocate lang....yong iba naman eh talagang board na...

Kung may mahanap lang talaga akong ibang trabaho...di ko pagtitiyagaan ang shop na ito. Kaso wala . Ayokong magmalaki na wala naman akong maipag mamalaki. Kung nakatakdang di na talaga ako makakapag aral...di ganon talaga...

Simula nong December... di pa ako sumasahod. Poro bali. Bali na lang ng bali. Wala namang sahod.Buti nga at nag aaral ako...At least nakakabali ako ng malaki laki...may dahilan para bumali.Papano kung di na ako nag aaral...Eh di naipon lahat ng sahod ko sa kanya. Di naman siya nagpapasahod. Kung ganon eh siguro weekly babali ako 1000.Kaya nga no nagtatrabaho para magkapera tapos di pa nagpapasahod...Ang hirap kaya ng ganon...dami ko tuloy utang ...nay utang pa ako sa 5'6. Tulad nyan ubos na yong bigsa na galing probinsiya...kauubos lang nong gasol nong isang araw...Alangan namang poro kapatid ko na naman ang gumastos para doon. End do na rin ang kapatid ko next month...wala na naman siyang trabaho....uuwi daw siya ng bicol after end do...wala daw pera...yon pa kinakatakot ko....sakali mang umalis ako dito sa shop. Pano kong pati ako wala trabaho....eh di si nene na lang ang mayron pano na...Ang hirap talagang mabuhay.....lalo na kung ginigipit ka pa lalo ng mga nakapalibot sayo...wala na yata akong pag asang makaahon man lang sa kahirapan....matanda na si nanay at nahina narin si tatay para mag trabaho sa bukid...Gustuhin ko man silang patigilin...wala naman akong maipapakain sa kanila...Dahil sa pangarap ko...Mahirap talagang timbangin ang mga bagay bagay.

The Best Way On Windows and Programs Installation...

2011-02-13T00:34:00.003+08:00

1.Clean installation is the best way for installing windows.
2.After a clean installation of windows, install antivirus first before doing anything else.
3.It is better to make 2 to 3 partition of your PC for your data protection.30GB to 50GB would do for your drive C: that contains boot partition or your operating system likes windows.Your drive d: is where your my documents is located.You can use folder redirection to change the default location of your my documents to a diffrent drive other than C:.And your drive e: is where your games and installer is located.In that case you will not lose any data if you want to change your OS or reinstall the operating system. Also your user settings for your games on what you accomplished will not be wipe out if you reformat only the drive c:
4.To protect your operating system from viruses and data manipulation that could slow your PC, accidental deletion, user setting changes and unnecessary files created by web browsing and other softwares during your work, it is better to protect and install a depfreeze on your computer.But be sure to have a separate drive or partition that is thawed to save your important files permanently.
5.When installing programs, it is better to use serial than a keygen and a crack.But the most better way is to buy the software.Some undetected and newly created virus and trojan hides by the programmer in the keygen and crack for easy propagation and distribution. Also when using key generator, it is better to run it in a pc with deefreeze frozen and take down the serial generated by the keygen than to copy and paste it.
6.For your own security install antivirus program first before anything else.
7.Never double click a drive as it may be a bridge to the virus to be activated that resides in the root directory through autorun.
8.For those who cannot buy the software, there's a lot of software over the internet who are free to download and use it without any limitation through crack or patches and keygen such as filestube.com,zshare.com,4share.com and many more if you are just patient in browsing.But i warned you scanned it first before running the program and use it at your own risk.For larger programs like games it is better to download it in torrent like torrentz.com,h33t.com and so on...
9.Never forget the these basic programs that must be install in the PC,MS office of course,winrar or winzip to read compressed files, adobe acrobat to read pdf files,open office to read (.odt) extension, klite mega codec pack from codecs.com to play any video type in the windows media player environment, adobe photoshop for photo editing software, burning software like nero, daemon tools or Power ISO to read ISO and create virtual CD/DVD drive.With virtual drive, you don't need to extract the ISO files in order to use it because it will read directly to ISO without having to uncompressed.
10.If everything has been setup correctly, all games has been installed, perform a disk cleanup to your drive and disk defragmenter to improve system startup time.Disk defragmenter increases access speed by rearranging files stored on a disk to occupy contiguous storage locations.

Working Student Part 3

2011-02-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

Last week was may Mid Term exam.But it was the time that i don't have time for studying or to review my lesson....I just copied it and forget it till next meeting I just found out that I had an assignment to fullfill.Because of my work I have to finish cloning every PC in the shop because my boss told me to reformat the system since theres a lot of virus already. Even it has the protection of deepfreeze, it is still vulnerable to virus when you're now using it.Its because My Document is found on drive D: where it has no deeepfreeze protection.So whatever the user has save on my document it will still be there even the virus that attact through usb.

Our shop has 120 pc divided into 3 rooms. I must finished at least one room for just one night.One room, the big one has been finished already or those that has a 160GB harddisk.On that night Im downloading a game NBA2K11,Prince of Persia, and setting up for the 250 GB harddisk.I have to download then install then patched and make sure its already working without a problem to be clone and deploy to 33 PC on the other room.That night im rushed because on the day I have an exam...I did'nt finished it because patching takes time and Im still downloading NBA2K11 and Prince of Persia-The Forgotten Sands. I decided to continue it on the next night since it's already 5:00 in the morning..."Im leaving", I said to my co workers. It was brownout, no current in the school when I arrived there...and computer is badly needed that time because I have to get a printed midterm permit. First I need to buy a couponbond to write a pormisorry note that my salary is not yet received and it will be received 2 to 3 days more. Since our first 3 hours meeting for COPRO2 is laboratory, so we don't have classes and the next 3 hours (10-1:00) will be COPRO2 lecture and it will be the time of exam for our COPRO2 so I have much time to study. I proceed to library, its quiet there to memorize.I was in my middle of review when my cellphne message tone rings...

Nabura ko na kasi but the message looks like this "Mag usap nga tayo mamaya...di mo ginagawa ng maayos trabaho mo.papasok at lalabas ka kung anong oras mo gusto.ginagawa mo nang library ang shop."

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig when I read the message.nawala ako sa concentration sa pag re review as in ang nasa utak ko eh kung papano ko irereply ang text nya.Im doing naman my best matapos ko lang maclone lahat ng iyon. Di ko pa nga lang talaga sinisimulan yong 33 pc na 500GB kasi may mga inaantay pa akong game na idadawnload. Gusto ko kasi complete and patched it already.Ayoko kasi na kung kailan ako tapos nang mag clone saka ulit may idadagdag na game or may nakalimutan na ilagay.Mas mahirap kasi pag inisa isa mong i fixed ang bawat PC may may mali sa setup or kulang ng games.So sabi ko na lang sa reply...
"Tatapusin ko lang muna ang exam saka ko ipagpapatuloy ang pag clone saka dinadownload ko pa NBA 2k11 at need kong mag out agad 2 hours before ng klase ko...7am kasi pasok ko ngayon."
Ewan ko ba kailangan ko magpakahinahon sa lahat ng panahon...Kung hindi dahil sa kanya wala ako ngayon sa school na ito, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko.
"Nong isang Linggo pa yang dinadownload mo ah...matagal ba yang NBA 2k11?"
ang reply nya ulit sa text. Hindi ko na sinagot...ayoko nang humaba usapan...No Talk, No mistake. At least ipinaalala ko lang sa kanya na week of exam namin ngayon kaya hope na naintindihan nya ko.
Nong magkita kami 2 or 3 days past...di nya naman ako kinausap tungkol dun...siguro mainit lang ulo nang mga oras na iyon...
Hirap talaga nag aaral at nagtatrabaho...laging rush ang lahat ng kilos mo at always hectic ang schedule.Kung pwede nga lang wag nang matulog.

Christmas 2010

2010-12-24T21:44:00.001+08:00

In less than 3 hours, christmas will come...and will go but it's just like an ordinary day to me.Everyone, every family is celebrating this yuletide season but not me.I don't have money to celebrate it.What's important is i'm working for my future.At this time sitting in front of a computer screen, writing on a blog, browsing the net, editing and updating my facebook and assisting the customer is all what I can do.

"Merry Christmas", greetings that is not meant for me. It's just for otheres.So do I have to say it for othere's whom I will meet?Yes because it is needed but I'm not in mood to say it?

Even with money I could not celebrate christmas with happiness. Why? Except the family, happiness is shared with othere's. Sad to say I don't have friends to share with smile and laughter.

From the time I graduated from high school, I lived in my own perspirations except those two years of studying vocational.Although I am far from my parents but they are the one who support for my living and financial needs. The rest through my perseverance, Im living alone.

The loneliness of being alone is what drives me to be more ambitious.
That's why Im still studying now to gain enough knowledge and to farther my connections to everyone.Who knows the one I could meet in school would be the bridge for my better future.

"Merry Christmas to everyone! Don't send me back the message...It's not meant for me."

Working Student Part 2

2010-10-31T03:04:00.000+08:00

Ilang araw din bago ko napag isipang magsulat ulit.Siguro eh dahil nangungulila lang ako sa school o kaya'y nababagot lang ako sa buhay...Tungkol pa rin sa study ko...nakaraos ang first sem ko although parang hindi maganda ang grades ko sa tatlong subject-namely Prostat,Physics 1 and Soculita.Bakit?Siguro eh dahil di lang talaga ako makapag concentrate sa studies...puyat kasi ako lagi pag pumapasok sa school at palagi pang late sa Prostat pati sa Physics kaya kahit Math yong Physics eh di ko pa rin ma catch up ang tinuturo ni maam...marami rin siyang mga physics principle na noon ko lang na encounter na di nya na isinusulat kaya medyo nahihirapan talaga ako mag analyze.Sa Soculita naman kailangan presko at maayos tulog mo para makapag memorize ka ng maayos. Pag hindi kahit ilang beses kong basahin walang pumapasok sa utak ko kaya laging walang sagot sa filling the blanks and enumeration.Kaya minsan dahil lagi akong nasa unahan napapansin siguro ni maam na wala akong maisagot kaya nagkakaroon ng true or false sa pag nagki quiz niya.

Ang akala ko di ako makakatapos ng 1st sem.Akala ko di ko kaya.Kaya ko pala kaso pinansiyal nga lang ang problema.Lagi kasing late magpasahod si Ate(tawag ko sa amo kong babae).Madalas pa ngang hindi nagpapasahod ng 2 to 3 months kaya poro bali ako. Naiintindihan ko naman kasi talagang mahina ang sales kaso ang dam ko namang utang sa kapatid na di pa mabayaran.

October 20 na ngayon at sa November 8 eh pasukan na.Sana makapag enrol ako 2 to 3 days bago ang formal starting of classes. Sana magpasahod naman si Ate.

Bakit nga ba ako nag aaral? Kung minsan eh hinahanapan ko ng mga kasagutan ang kagustuhan kong makatapos ng 4 year course.Una eh gusto kong makahanap ng mas magandang opurtunidad - pag tapos ako ng apat na taong kurso, mag malaki ang chance, pangalawa nais kong maranasan ang pagiging working student at pangatlo gusto kong may pinagkakaabalahan ako dahil nakakabagot ang kasalukuyan kong trabaho.Tumatanda na kasi ako pero walang nangyayaring maganda sa buhay ko.Kailangan ko ng isang bagong karanasan naman. Ayokong nakatali sa isang tabi at hanggang doon na lang habang buhay.

Sa school, ok lang naman mga kaklase ko...yong iba tumataas ang kilay pag nakikita ako...Ewan ko kung bakit wala naman akong ginawang masama.Baka na insecure lang...hahah.ako nga ang dapat ma insecure kasi ang tataas ng grades nila.Yong mga babae, classmate ko lang sila...they are just ghost sa paningin ko because I'm also ghost to them so patas lang.Ganon din sa lalake. Mabuti nga sa lalake dahil kahit papaano may nakakausap ako, may nakakasamang kumain at nagtutulungan sa mga project specially sa programming. Saka I don't need friends naman. Mas gusto kong mapag isa dahil dun ako masaya.Yun nga lang sabi nga, I could miss one fourth of my life if without interactions. Kaya nagsisikap pa rin akong makihalubilo kahit madalas eh ako yong laging nasasaktan.Sabagay it' s already part of my life.

Antok na ko....on duty ako ngayong gabi and tomorrow tulog ako.

Working Student Story 1

2010-09-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

It is very hard to study while working. There's always a short in time, always late, always in rush, always busy, no time for review, no time for gimmick, and always low grades to those subject that requires memorization and filling the blanks. By next week is our Semi Final Exam.I don't know if I can get 4000 pesos for the payment of my tuition fees.My Boss told me that she has no money.Our salary must be receive every end of the month but it's already eleven days had passed without receiving any salary.

I can't study well when examination is approaching.It's always hunted me.Where can I get that money, how to tell it to my Boss when the right time comes?

"It's Hard To Live In The World That No One Cares"

2010-08-25T12:59:00.000+08:00

My parents raised me well in good deeds and educated me. I meet different kinds of people with different attitudes with different cultures in my journey of a thousand miles but no one cares and no one loves me except my parents, brothers and sister. I was sad and very unhappy throughout my whole existence in these Earth. But what can I do? The only thing that I can do is to pursue my education and achieved my goal for me and my parents.

Crush, love and likes - I set aside those things even though my heart said "yes" but my mind always said "no" because it will only lead to a broken heart or could be leading to a distraction. Instead, I dedicated myself for studying....reading...studying...and studying...working...studying...to cheer-up my self for living alone in a loneliness place. I choose to excel in academics than to have fun with friends since no one cares and no one wants me to be friend...Now, I tried to interact with everybody but it's hard for me to cope because I'm a selfish and a jealous person. But I can managed it.I just have to accept and learned the fact that I am not the only person.

I wish, I am just an easy go lucky person who have everything in material things so that I can focus myself in studying without having to work for money. In this way I can still be happy with at least one than to have nothing at all.

"If they don't like me then I don't like them also.Who cares? I don't mind them at all."That's the motto I created to build courage within myself. That's why almost everyone I meet everyday, talk everyday - I just know their face but not in their names.Furthermore everyone is just a by passers in my path and so is me to everyone.

If someone is good to me, no matter what's it's purpose, I can't help myself to find the reason and wonder a BIG "Why?"Maybe it's only in the beginning...Or maybe it's just only for temporary until it finds the right,or maybe ....i hope there's a reason....

The worst thing that could happen in my life is rejection. It will change everything and it will last forever. If I treat someone special close to my heart like a brother or sister to me and receive rejection, it will lead me to loneliness.Because things will be change. I will not approach it again because I don't want to receive rejection for the second time.I don't want to receive comments na makulit ako.Yes I will entertain but theres always a gap and limitation. Ayoko kasing napapahiya.

Wherever You Will Go

2010-08-20T10:50:00.001+08:00

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Facebook: What's On Your Mind

2010-08-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

im still searching in the middle of the dark..........
still hoping for a light.......
i don't need companion.....
but i need a shoulder to lean on
...if it is needed....
but not necessary......
if I can do it alone....
it is better....
i dont need to bother everybody for my personal gain...
if someone offerred it, i'll accept it...
but it does'nt mean that i beleive you....
that your concern.....
everyone is just the same as the other....

I have my own world...
that only me can enter...
I can share happiness outside my world
but you can't share happiness into my world....
It will only lead to destruction....
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July 17 at 12:18am

I always do everything to be in proper order,
to be in the right road
to be in the right mind
Everything that i touch
everything that i see
...everything within my reach
but not all goes out well
to the way I am wanted
because everyone is different...
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August 2 at 8:48pm

By Passers

Happiness of a man are not 4ever.
Sometimes I am happy because your within reach
But the truth your too far away.
...
We shared a lot of things.
We shared ideas, happiness,
but something is missing.
Because we lack understanding.

Do I know U?
Your just a by passers in the road of my dream.
A temporary companion same as the other.
A road crossing ahead, you will be depart
But experiences is left in my heart.

August 8 at 1:48pm

I will continue to search those that I don't have...no matter what consequences is...because I beleive everything can get with perseverance and courage as long as I'm in the right path...God does'nt create faulty life... but you created it...if you seek help to the Lord, take action...do something...it will not come just by setting there waiting...Aug. 27, 10:30PM

Happiness of a man are not 4ever.
Sometimes I am happy because your within reach
But the truth your too far away.
We shared a lot of things.
We shared ideas, happiness,but something is missing.
...Because we lack understanding.
Do I know U?
Your just a by passers in the road of my dream.
A temporary companion same as the other.
A road crossing ahead, you will be depart
But memories is left in my heart
August 13 at 4:19pm

Changes

It's not been so long that we've known each other....
But I always find myself missing you every seconds of the day...
What could I do? Im just a human who misses your presence...
...Maybe because of joy that you shared with me every meeting;

........to be continue
August 20 at 3:43pm

sometimes its better to mind my own...
August 25 at 10:50pm

You always crossed in my mind but it's useless to think of you....
August 30 at 2:08pm

****Life Must Go On****
Life must go on with or without you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life must go on without anybody......

I can always stand.....and conquer what lies ahead...
...
If I find rejection, it will never happened again

I will do it once and it will never happened twice...

Just once and everything will change...

Because every actions, every work will remains in my mind

and it will keep in my heart forever...
Sept. 5, 2010

How To Determine The Days of The Week in a Matter of Seconds?

2010-01-22T20:30:00.001+08:00

Do you know what days of the week you were born? Will nowadays in the age of information technology.It is not a problem...but can you guess it in a matter of seconds without using computer or without computations? Probably not.Here, I will teach you how to guess the days of the week in a matter of seconds...

My birthday is May 16, 1980.What day of the week is it? It was a question that comes out in my mind in my Elementary years but it was being answered by an old magazine with a calendar dated 1980. Few people can tell the days of the week for any date in the past or future with amazing speed, probably less than a minute. How? Well every person has its own way of solving it but surely they don't spend time consuming computations for that because the numbers are already in their minds. The solution number codes memorization.

Download this document to help you understand the secret to guess it in seconds...

http://rapidshare.com/files/339275909/My_birthday_is_May_16.docx.html

Download this program as your number one tool for practicing the formula...

http://rapidshare.com/files/339196906/DAYSCTR.EXE.html

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My life's Countdown

2009-12-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

Bata pa ako'y nakaplano na ang lahat sa aking isipan ang aking pag-aaral. Sa kabila ng kahirapan, umaasang balang araw ay makapagtatapos ng bachelor degree sa Maynila bilang isang working student.Noon, marami pa akong nababalitaan na mga taong nakapagtapos ng pag aaral sa kabila ng kahirapan at nagiging matagumpay. Dahil dito’y nagsikap akong mag aral, hindi man ako ang pinaka magaling sa klase palagi naman akong nasa top 5ng aming klase mula Elementarya at hanggang high school. Sinikap kong magsipag pa ng mabuti baka sakaling ako ang manguna ngunit hanggang pangalawa lang ako at nang magga gradweyt na ako ng high school nagging top six na lang ang inabot ko.Masakit sa akin pero hanggang doon na lang talaga ang kaya ko.Sa katotohanan, kaya ko ngunit dahil ang favoritism sa klase ay di mawawala lalo’t kung isa sa guro ng subject mo’y kabilang sa 3rd sex samahan pa ng isang pangit na mukhang tulad ko ay kaiinisan ka lang. Ang inisip ko na lang noon, kapirasong papel lang iyon, ang talinoy nasa aking utak at di mananakaw ninuman.Mahaba pa ang aking lalakbayin at marami pa ang darating.

Dumating ang graduation ko sa high school sa edad na 18 taong gulang subalit hindi ako Masaya.Hindi kasi napasaakin ang karangalang pinapangarap ko noon pa man. Life must go on ika nga.Pagkatapos ng graduation nagtrabaho ako as supermarket boy sa Naga City at age of 19, stay in at dahil first time job ko kahit 1000/month ang sahod ay tiniis ko ang isang taong pagtatrabaho.Katwiran ko, nagsisimula pa lang ako and I need experience. At age of 20, isang buwan before na umalis ako which is month of enrollment noon, nag exam ako sa TESDA for PESFA scholarship. Sa kabila ng pagtutol ng aking ina dahil di daw niya kaya ay ipinilit ko pa rin na makakaraos ako pagkat may may 2500 naman para sa aming book allowance/sem.Tinipid ko ang aking sarili noon makatapos lamang pumasok pang katulong ang aking ina at tumigil sa pag-aaral ng isang taon ang isa ko pang kapatid dahil sa akin.Ang plano ko noon, makapagtapos lang ako ng 2 years course na ito ay may pakpak na ako sa pakikipagsapalaran sa Maynila.Di ako mahihirapang maghanap ng trabaho kumpara sa high school graduate lang.Mag se-self supporting ako, makapagtapos lang ng apat na taong kurso sa kolehiyo sa Maynila. Subalit mahirap palang matupad ang pangarap na iyon.Sa edad na 22 taong gulang, I was graduated for a 2 year vocational course as a Computer Technician.Pagkalipas ng tatlong buwan ay isinama ako sa Maynila sa tulong ng aking pinsang buo na napasyal sa aming probinsiya.Sa Maynila nagtrabaho ako sa palengke as taga benta at boy sa isang negosyante na bumibili sa supplier ng sako sako ng ibat ibang klaseng produkto na ibinebenta rin sa mga taong nagbebenta ng tingi tingi dun din sa palengke.Kalahating buwan lang ako roon.Hindi ko nakaya.Ubos na kasi ang baon kong pera at kailangan ko ng pang requirements sa paghanap ng trabaho kaya kahit mabigat na trabaho pinasok ko.Ang masakit pa, hindi pa ako sinahuran ng aking amo dahil di nga ako pinapayagan na umuwi.Buti na lang may pera ako galing sa mga tip ng customer na ginamit kong pamasahe pauwi sa kapatid ng tatay ko.Bumagsak ang katawan ko sa trabahong iyon.Bumuhat ka ba naman ng sako sakong bigas,asukal,arena at mga sangkap sa pagluluto-lahat na lang ng makikita sa palengke, makikita mo doon. Trinatrangkaso ako kung kayat naisipan kong umuwi na lang para makapagpahinga ngunit di ako pinayagan ng amo kong lalake. Dahil labag sa kalooban nila ang aking pag alis dahil wala pa daw akong kapalit kaya di nila ako sinahuran. Yon ang kauna unahang trabahong pinasukan ko ditto sa Maynila-from June 21, 2002 to July 3, 2002(13 days). Bumalik ako sa aking tiyahin at dahil mga wala ding trabaho ang mga anak niya kayatnang araw ding iyon ay bmisita ako sa pamangkin ni tatay at inalok ako ng pamangkin ni tatay na babae na doon muna ako tumuloy dahil baka maipasok daw ako ng kanyang asawa sa kanyang pinapasukan.Tinulungan nga nila ako hanggang sa makumpleto ko ang requirements ngunit habang tumatagal di pa rin ako makahanap ng trabaho. Nag applay na ako sa pinapasukan ng kanyang asawa at tatawagan na lang daw.Hindi nga kami ininterbyu, basta kinuha lang yong requirements.Nag antay kami ng tawag….nag antay ako sa wala. Nag apply ako ulit sa buiscuit company-nag submit lang ako ng mga requirements na ipinaabot ko sa kakilala ng pamangkin ni tatay na doon ngatatrabaho sa biscuit na iyon dahil may kakilala siyang backer doon. Pero wala ding nangyari.Nagastusan lang ang tinitirhan ko ng pang medical ko hanggang sa mag decision akong ipa pull-out na ang aking mga requirements. Hanggang unti unti ng nanlamig sila sa akin. Dahil wala akong silbi, wala akong naitulong at pakainin lang.

Pinagkagastusan lang nila ako para sa aking mga requirements ngunit wala ring nangyari.Dahil akoy naging palamunin lamang kaya’t napilitan akong umalis sa kanila noong October 12, 2002(almost 3 months ako sa kanila) na gustong gusto na rin naman nila akong paalisin. Halos di na nga kami nagkikibuan ng araw na iyon.Doon ko naranasan ang kainisan ka ng iyong kasmbahay bilang sampid sa isang tahanan.Mahirap makibagay at makisama sa isang kamag anak. Muli akong bumalik sa aking Tiyahin na kapatid ng tatay ko at doon ako naging tambay ng 7 buwan sa kanila.Isang araw, May 15, 2003 may dumating na bisita at ako pala ang sadya sa utos na rin ng aking magulang na kukunin nya raw ako upang bigyan ng trabaho sa isang panaderya at stay in.Yon pala may 500 siya sa bawat tauhang mairerekomenda niya sa panaderya.Kinahapunan nang araw ding iyon ihinatid niya ako sa panaderya. Nang minsang mangutang ako para ipadala sa aking magulang hindi nila ako binigyan.If I don't want, I can leave.Kalahating buwan lamang ako roon at sa aking pag alis bayaran ko pa daw ang mga nasunog kong tinapay.Ako kasi ang tagaluto ng tinapay sa madaling araw at ilang araw bago ako umalis ay nakasunog ako ng 6 na tray ng tinapay. Pero hindi ko naman na binayaran nang umalis ako noong May 20, 2003..Saan naman ako kukuha ng pambayad?Tumuloy ako sa taong kumuha sa akin at isang araw nagkuwento ang isang kapitbahay niya sa akin na hiring daw sa burger machine na trinatrabahuhan niya.So sinamahan niya ako para mag apply at nang makapasa ako sa wakas nagkaroon ako ng maaayos ayos na trabaho for the first time in my life sa Maynila noong june 9, 2003. Subalit di rin ako tumagal sa trabahong iyon dahil sa kapabayaan – nahuli ako sa outlet assignment ko na brown ang sapatos , and no caps dagdag pa yong nahuli ako nang mga nakaraang araw ng nag robing na bagong assistant supervisor na natutulog kayat napilitan akong gumawa ng resignation paper noong October 24, 2003 sa utos na rin ng Assistant Manager na ang balak sana’y i-assign ako sa ibang outlet yong di mag krus ang landas namin ng Manager dahil ayaw na talaga akong papasukin ng Manager.

Walong buwan ko uling ginugol ang pagiging tambay sa piling ng aking tiyahin. Sa ikawalong buwan nang nawalan ng boy yong nagde deliber ng tubig doon sa barangay namin ay ako ang inerekomenda ng aking Tiyahin na magpatubig sa mga bahay bahay noong June 9, 2004. Simula noon ay unti unti uli akong nakaipon ng pera hanggang s umalis ako noong April 13, 2005 dahil sa natanggap ako as a janitor sa Isetann Department Stores and Supermarket sa Recto. Naging janitor ako sa Isetann as a recontractual employee for morethan 17 months (end of 5 monthsContract September 26, 2006). Hindi na ako nag recontract dahil gusto ko naman na maghanap ng ibang mapapasukan. Ayokong maging janitor habang buhay. Nakaipon ako ng mahigit 30 thousand pesos na nasa isang passbook account sa Banco de Oro sa SM Manila. Ang lahat ng iyon ay unti unti ring naubos sa kawalan ko ng trabaho at bago pa maubos ay ibinili ko ng laptop. December 1, 2006 nang magsimula akong maging Merchandiser sa Del Monte only for one month, Just for a Seasonal Merchandiser. Bago pa man ako makatanggap ng aking salary as a Merchandiser ay na drain na ang aking account kaya ipina close ko na ng tuluyan. After ng aking December contract ay nalipat ako as Merchandiser Reliever (On Leave Releiver pag wlang naka leave, wala akong trabaho) hanggang sa huli akong nagtrabaho noong March 6, 2007. Around may 2007 nang magsimula akong makapagtrabaho as Computer Technician (recommended by one of my boardmate) hanggang sa kasalukuyan.

Parang kailan lang. Ang bilis ng panahon.Mahigit pitong taon na ang nakalilipas mula ng ako makapaggradweyt ng 2 years vocational course sa kolehiyo.Ngayo'y 29 years old na ako ngunit mailap pa rin ang magandang kapalaran. Kahit papaanoy nagsikap ako subalit hanggang doon nalang ata ang lahat.By next year I'm already thirty. Kung maaari ko nga lang pigilin ang aking pagtanda. Matagal ko nang ginawa.When I'm alone and thinking, I'm always hunt by my age.And I have nothing to do but to dream and to plan my future.The truth I'm already tired.But I cannot cannot give up.Because as long as the Lord gives me breath as I woke up everyday in the morning, Im always full of hope...to do my duties...to face the challenges that are waiting ahead...

MYSTERIES and Conspiracy

2009-07-11T04:34:00.000+08:00

Where is now the Garden of EDEN?

A river watering the garden flowed from Eden; from there it was separated into four headwaters. 11 The name of the first is the Pishon; it winds through the entire land of Havilah, where there is gold. 12 (The gold of that land is good; aromatic resin [d] and onyx are also there.) 13 The name of the second river is the Gihon; it winds through the entire land of Cush. [e] 14 The name of the third river is the Tigris; it runs along the east side of Ashur. And the fourth river is the Euphrates.Genesis 2:10-14
So the LORD God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. 24 After he drove them out, he placed on the east side [e] of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.Genesis 3:23-24

What is Area 51?

The intense secrecy surrounding the base, the very existence of which the U.S. government barely acknowledges, has led it to become the frequent subject of conspiracy theories and a central component to unidentified flying object (UFO) folklore

Moon Landing:Did they Land on the Moon?

Apollo Moon Landing hoax conspiracy theories are claims that some or all elements of the Apollo Moon landings were faked by NASA and possibly members of other involved organizations. Some groups and individuals have advanced various theories which tend, to varying degrees, to include suggestions that the Apollo astronauts did not land on the Moon, that NASA and possibly others intentionally deceived the public into believing the landings did occur by manufacturing, destroying, or tampering with evidence, including photos, telemetry tapes, transmissions, and rock samples, and that the deception continues to this day.
There is abundant independent evidence for Apollo Moon landings and these conspiracy theories have been generally discredited. Many commentators have published detailed rebuttals to the hoax claims.[1] A 1999 poll by The Gallup Organization found that 89% of the US public believed the landings were genuine, while 6% did not, and 5% were undecided. from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apollo_moon_landing_conspiracy_theory

The Bermuda Triangle(Devils Sea) Mystery

Bermuda Triangle is the greatest modern mystery of our supposedly well understood world:a region of the Atlantic Ocean between Bermuda, Miami, Florida, and San Juan, Puerto Rico, where disappearances of ships and planes are still defying leaving without a trace until now.

The Bibbles Online

2009-07-11T04:06:00.000+08:00

At last I already found an online Bibble to be read.It is from Internetional Bibble Society.Here is their home page...
http://www.ibsstl.org/ From July 13, 2009 their website will be updated and will become http://www.biblica.com

This site is the first site about holy scriptures to be a resourceful.They translate the Bibble to morethan 600 languages and still growing.They even have King James Version.

WorkAbroad.ph - Overseas Job Openings

2009-06-20T02:44:00.001+08:00

WorkAbroad.ph - Overseas Job Openings

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May Pag asa Pa Ba?

2009-06-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Sa tuwing maaalala ko ang aking gulang, ang aking kalagayan, ang mga magulang ko't kapatid at katayuan namin sa lipunan; lagi kong itinatanong sa aking sarili kong may pag-asa pa bang matuntun ko ang daang nais kong tahakin sa buhay? Dalawamput siyam na taon na ako ngayon.Kung susumahin,dapat ay nasa stable na ang aking buhay.Lipas na sa tinatawag na "working age" at malapit na ring mawala sa kalendaryo.Ang aking kapatid na bunsong babae'y ilang taon nang naghihintay sa aking tulong na mapagaral ko sa kolehiyo subalit hanggang ngayo'y wala akong magawa.Samahan ko pa ng pansarili kong pangarap ay halos mabaliw na ako sa kaiisip kung malalampasan ko pa ba ang mga ganitong isipin.Sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos kapag nakakasumpong ako ng isang katulong sa bahay, isang matandang pulubi sa kanto,o mga kalumpon ng mga estudyanteng rumaragasa papasok ng paaralan ay naalala ko lamang ang aking sariling kalagayan. Sa ngayong walang tiyak na patutunguhan ang aking buhay, lagi kong itinatanong, saan ako pupulutin pagdating ng araw?Ano ang aking magiging kalagayan kung wala pa ring pagbabagong nagaganap sa aking pang araw araw na buhay?Kumikilos naman ako, nagsisikap na mabuti pero walang nangyayari.Parang balewala lang ang lahat. Naging mabuti akong anak sinunod ko ang payo ng aking mga magulang at naging mabuti rin ako sa aking kapwa. Hindi ako nagdulot ng kanilang ikasasakit ng loob at naging mapagkumbaba. O'ot nagkaroon ako ng kaaway ngunit di ako ang naunang manakit ng kanilang kalooban. Buong buhay koy nagi akong mabuting tagasunod at naging mabuting tagapaglingkod sa mga nakatataas sa akin.Ginawa ko na ang lahat, di ako naging pabigat sa aking mga magulang at di rin naging pabigat sa lipunang aking ginagalawan ngunit magpahanggang ngayon parang kulang pa ring ang lahat ng aking pagpapakabuti.Kung minsan naitatanong ko tuloy sa aking sarili, saan pa ba ako nagkakamali?

Sa kasalukuyan nandito pa rin ako.Kung anong trabaho ko nung isang taon, ganon pa rin ngayon.Walang pagbabago.Paulit ulit lang ang nangyayari.Nakakasawa na rin kahit papaano ngunit wala naman akong magawa.Hirap na talaga ng buhay sa totoo lang.Mas lalo pang pinahirap ng kasalukuyang administrasyon.Hindi ko na nga sana dapat pang isali ang bansa sa kung anong kalagayan namin ngayon pagkat nakasalalay sa aming mga kamay ang guhit ng aming kapalaran.Ngunit di ko maiaalis sa aking sarili ang halaga ng aming mga binibiling gastusin at bayarin sa aming mga pang araw araw na pangangailangan.Mataas na presyo ng bilihin, mababang sahod,maraming nangangailangan ng trabaho ngunit kaunti ang employer, malaking halaga ang inaangkat na produkto ng Pilipinas kesa sa pumapasok na dolyar, mga pinunong nagbabangayan at batuhan ng putik sa halip na pagtutulungan sa pagresolba sa mga problema ng bansa. Samahan pa ng corruption ng mga nakaupo sa puwesto na dapat sana'y sa maliliit na mamamayan napupunta ay halos malugmot na sa putikan ang mga mahihirap na mamamayan.

Sa katotohanan ang isang bansang may magulong pulitika'y di kailanman uunlad.Ang isang mahirap na tulad ko'y lalo lamang malulugmot pa at ang mga mayayamang negosyante't mga dayuhang namumuhunan ay lalo lamang yayaman. Sisipsipin nila ang dugot pawis ng mga maralitang mamamayan at iiwan sa tabi na parang isang basahan.Sa katotohanan noon man at magpahanggang ngayon, ang mamamayan ng Pilipinas ay alipin sa kanyang sariling bayan.

If and Only I'm Abundant with Money...

2008-12-28T06:52:00.000+08:00

My childhood is full of ambitions.An ambition that comes out in my mind because of my status, because of how I am look, because I wanted my parents to be proud of me, because I wanted my name not to be forgotten by the world even a centuries would past and because of my will to do things that will benefit me and my community for the present and for the future. But those dreams is just a dream that will never come true. Even I tried my best to study, because of money everything has been left with a period until now.

What I wanted to? I have so many things to do.I wanted to be a scientist and study abroad. I wanted to be an astronomer and flew up into space.I wanted to live in every country because I want to know how to speak and write their own language such as japanese, chinese, latin, greek, arabic, korean... My life in this world is short to study all of that.I wanted to know how to play piano because I wanted to compose a beautiful song that will express my feelings to someone. A song that will give hope and enlighten the heart of everyone.

I wanted to know how a machine works with a gasoline so that I could arrive to a solution that could invent a machine that will run through a water.I know someone knows that and it is from my own country but he had no intention to spread it to everyone. If there is, why he does'nt write a book about it.He was too selfish.If he will share it, it will be a big help to every human in my country specially to the poor community. If GOD gave me that talent,I will not waste it.

Poor child.One of those child is me.I've reach with this age with nothing but still dreaming. GOD gave me a talent but I cannot use it.The truth, I need to work hard everyday for my living and not for my dreams.How pitiful I am. That is why I envy otheres who had enough and can do what they want.I studied but not enough to feed my hungry mind.I need money to conquer my dreams.Everything in this modern world needs money to survive and to live in happiness.The happiness in gaining more knowledge not the happiness to fun with friends.

Most of all the most reasonable one why I need to know everything is because I wanted to do things to the world that will never ever forgotten me and that will cherish me as long as the world is here.Time will come, I will be leaving.Everyone will be leaving but the world will stay...and I do not want to leave without nothing left to them.I would be happy if this is my duty - to leave with importance to the world even an ordinary citizen like me.

An open Letter to The Present and to The Future Presidents of The Philippines

What Matters Most - Kenny Rankin

2008-07-05T14:26:00.001+08:00

Maikli lang ang buhay ng tao sa mundong ibabaw.Lumilipas ang panahon.Tumatanda ang tao.Ngunit ang mundoy nananatili.May mga dumarating at may mga nawawala at mayroon ding namang nananatili.So cherish those who are here with you and remember those that was become a part of your journey in life....

mas mabuti pa ang magmahal at nawala kaysa walang minamahal kailanman.

An Open Letter to the Present and to the Future President of the Philippines

2008-05-14T09:58:00.000+08:00

Daniel Dingel is a Filipino inventor invented the water powered vehicle completely in 1986 but why he has not given support by the Philippine Government?Here is his answer.

"So I started with that and then I..What I did is I went to see the President former president Marcos and then explained my inventions that could help our country.The president will come the idea but the problem is there was a Coup de 'etat so it became failed so there was another president Cory Aquino and as a matter of fact she ride the car with me and he was with me in the car testing the car and he said that "This is the miracle I had been waiting for".But sad to say that after two weeks I was able to know that the Government is not in the position to help because as under the aggreement between the IMF and the World Bank; Our country is under obligations by the IMF and the World Bank not to produce anything that will compete their product and then so the 40% of all tax, there will be no more revenue for the government. But I told him that Sir It will prolong the life of the people. There will be no more pollution.So I keep working on it and then improving my inventions.Maybe thinking that one day, someday maybe this inventions will be used and it will help humanity."

Para sa minamahal naming Pangulo at sa mga susunod pang pinuno ng bansa.Ang Pilipinas ay tinaguriang “isang pulubing nakaupo sa ginto” sa kadahilanang sagana nga tayo sa mga likas na kayamanan ngunit di naman natin alam o kaya’y kulang tayo sa mga kagamitan para lubos na mapakinabangan.Nakasalalay sa aming mga kabataaan ang mga gawa subalit nasa inyong mga kamay ang pagpapatupad.Ang isang pulutong ng mga mangangabayo ay hindi magtatagumpay sa pakikipaglaban kung walang mamumuno sapagkat magkakaroon ng ibat ibang paraan at layunin. Kasabihang ang isang kahariang nagkakabaha-bahagi ay bumabagsak.
Kung kayo po ay manghahalal ng mga manunungkulan sa ibat ibang sektor ng lipunan ay nararapat po nninyo itong bantayan.Walang asa-asawa, walang anak, walang kamag-a mag-anak, walang kaibigan at walang kapatid.Samakatuwid walang dapat na panigan.Ang mga kamaliang magagawa ng inyong mga tagapangasiwa sa iba’t ibang sektor ng lipunan ay dagta sa inyong pangalan at isang nakahahawang sakit ang maaaring epekto niyon na unti unti na palang pumapatay sa mga maliliit na mamamayan ng inyong nasasakupan.Hindi mo lang iyon mapapansin subalit iyong mararamdaman paglipas ng panahon.Kaming mga mamamayan ay hindi tumitingin sa inyong mga nagawa kundi sa pangkalahatang resulta ng inyong mga nagawa.Pangunahan mo ang mga mamamayan sa mga proyektong tatamasahin nila ng pangmatagalan at di pang maikling panahon lamang.
Taon taon ay libo libong mga propesyunal ang nagsisipagtapos-doktor, inhenyero, mekaniko, mga nakapag aral sa IT at kung anu-ano pa subalit iilan lamang sa kanila ang mga pinalad sa mundo ng kanilang propesyun.Kung sila po ay inyong gawing kasangkapang makagawa ng mga kagamitang lilinang sa ating mga likas na yaman hindi na sana natin kailangan pang magbitaw ng dolyar, malinang laman ang sariling atin.H’wag po nating iasa sa ibang bansa ang kaunlaran natin sa agham at teknolohiya.Ito’y nararapat magsimula sa sarili nating bayan sapagkat tayong lahat at kahit alinmang bansa wala kang mababasa na sila’y nagsimula ng mayroon na kundi sa wala. Gawin po nating halimbawa ang bansang Japan.Salat sila sa likas na yaman subalit maunlad na bansa dahil sa agham at teknolohiya .Matalino ang mga Pilipino subalit wala pang Pangulo ang nagpahalaga sa katalinuhan ng kasalukuyang henerasyon.Batas nag humahadlang sa mga imbentor ng bayan kayat igawad din sana ang batas na sa kanila’y magbibigay daan.Sana naman may isang sumulpot na Pangulo ng Pilipinas na magpapahalaga sa mga imbentor ng bayan.
Pulitika ang dahilan sa paghihirap ng bansang Pilipinas.Kung isasantabi lamang ng bawat nanalo at natalong kandidato ang pulitika at harapin ng bawat isa ang kanilang papel na dapat gampanan sa lipunan, tulungan sa halip na siraan ang pinuno ng bayan mahalin kahit na ang pinaka mabigat na kaaway, siguro nama’y tatakbo ng maayos at tahimik ang lahat sapagkat ang pinuno ay makapag iisip ng maayos ng walang pangamba’t alinlangan

Opurtunidad at Negosyo

Gumagalang,
cybermind

Whats the Reason why Pilipino inventor will be having no supports from the governments?

2008-05-12T08:15:00.000+08:00

Daniel Dingel is a Filipino inventor invented the water powered vehicle in 1986 but why he has not given support by the Philippine Government?Here is his answer.

"So I started with that and then I..What I did is I went to see the President former president Marcos and then explained my inventions that could help our country.The president will come the idea but the problem is there was a Coup de 'etat so it became failed so there was another president Cory Aquino and as a matter of fact she ride the car with me and he was with me in the car testing the car and he said that "This is the miracle I had been waiting for".But sad to say that after two weeks I was able to know that the Government is not in the position to help because as under the aggreement between the IMF and the World Bank; Our country is under obligations by the IMF and the World Bank not to produce anything that will compete their product and then so the 40% of all tax, there will be no more revenue for the government. But I told him that Sir It will prolong the life of the people. There will be no more pollution.So I keep working on it and then improving my inventions.Maybe thinking that one day, someday maybe this inventions will be used and it will help humanity"

I know that it is not the only reson.It is only one of the reason.Ang katuparan ng tubig bilang pamalit sa langis ay katuparan sa pagbagsak ng malalaking oil companys maging paghina ng mga industriya ng elektrisidad.Subalit patuloy na umiikot ang mundo, patuloy ding umuunlad ang teknolohiya subalit ang tao'y lumilipas. Kung kaya't tanggapin na natin ang katotohanan na ang bawat isa'y may hangganan.Sana naman suportahan natin ang anumang nagagawang maganda para sa daigdig kahit na ng karaniwang mamamayan.

Opurtunidad at Negosyo

2008-04-10T01:36:00.000+08:00

Kung sumasahod ka ng sabihin nating mga 10 libo isang buwan at gumagastos ka ng 150/day for food,1200 para sa upa sa bahay, at 500 ang nagagastos mo para sa personal na gamit ay gumagastos ka ng 6200 sa isang buwan o sabihin na nating 7000 ang gastos mo kasama na ang di mo inaasahang gastusin;ay may maiipon kang 3000 sa isang buwan,36000 sa isang taon.Yon ay kung tuloy tuloy ang iyong trabaho.Pano kung nawalan ka?
Sabihin na nating at age of 18 ay nagsimula ka ng magtrabaho.Pagkalipas ng 10 taon, 28 years old ka na at nakaipon ka na ng 360000.Lumipas pa ang 30 taon at nakaipon ka ng 1.44 milyon sa edad na 58 taong gulang.Ngayon, ito ang tanong?Buong buhay mo'y inialay mo sa pagiging isang empleyado, mai-enjoy mo pa ba ang 1.44 milyon gayong uugod ugod ka na't kung tutuusin ay napakaliit na halaga? Makakapag outing ka pa ba,mmakakapag excursion ka pa ba sa mga magagandang resort at makaaakyat ka pa ba sa bundok kasama ang iyong mga barkada at kaibigan na di iindahin ang mabilis na pagkapagod dala ng katandaan?Anong halaga ng buhay kung di mo man lang ma enjoy sa iyong kabataan?Matatamo mo lamang ang mga iyon kung malaki ang pumapasok kesa lumalabas.Ito'y sa pamamagitan lamang ng isang negosyo.
"Anak...,mag-aral kang mabuti para kapag lumaki ka makakakuha ka ng magandang trabaho."
Kadalasan yan ang ating naririnig sa ating mga magulang.Kaya naman karamihan sa mga pilipino ay ipinanganak at tumanda bilang isang empleyado.Mula pagkabata yan na ang itinatanim sa ating mga kukuti ng ating mga mga magulang.Sabagay sino nga ba naman ang magasasabi ng "Anak magsikap kang mabuti para makapag ipon ka ng puhunan sa isang negosyo", gayong isang kahit isang tuka lang naman ang iyong pinagmulan?

"Opurtunidad o pagkakataon".Yan ang tanging pinanghahawakan ko sa kasalukuyan kaya't patuloy akong nabubuhay at nakikipagsapalaran.Kaalaman ang inihatid sa akin ng diploma na lehis sa diplomang gusto kong maabot dahil sa kahirapan; at hindi kaluwagan ng pamumuhay.Dahil sa diplomang yaon kung kayat kinailangan kong mabuhay sa paghihigpit ng sinturon dahil maganda sa pandinig ng iba.Subalit hanggang kailan kung pakiwari ko'y sinisingil na ako ng aking mga magulang at syang maaasahan lamang ng aking mga kapatid.Kinailangan ko na bang isantabi ang diplomang ito upang kahit papaanoy'y tulad noon ay may naiaabot sa aking mga magulang?Umuusad ang panahon at tiyak na mapag iiwanan ako ng IT age kung ibang landas ang aking tatahakin na tiyak na walis at tambo ang aking kahahantungan sapagkat dahilan sa limitasyon ng edad.

"Oppurtunity knocks only once".But how long will I wait for that oppourtunity?When it be? How? Who?

By Cybermind

Philippine Politics Useless!!!

Bigas!

2008-04-05T19:02:00.000+08:00

Halos ilang buwan din akong di nakapunta ng palenke dahil simula ng maubos ang dalawang kabang bigas galing sa probinsya, madalas ay kapatid ko ang aking pinabibili ng bigas pati na mga grocery items.Kaya naman nalula talaga ako sa presyo ng bigas nang magawi ako roon.Hindi ko talaga inaasahan.Mabilis na lumarawan sa aking isipan kung papaano nangyari.Nang makapanood ako ng balita sa T.V., dun ko lang nalaman na mga chinese businessman ang kumokuntrata sa ating mga magsasaka upang pagkatapos ay iimbakin lang naman at itatago upang kapag nagkaroon na ng krisis sa supply ng bigas ay saka lamang ilalabas sa mas mataas na halaga.Itinatag ang NFA upang limitahan ang mabilis na pagtaas ng bigas at upang sa panahon ng tagtuyot ay may madudukot ang ating bansa.Ngunit kamakailan lamang ay natagpuan sa isang warehouse na pag-aari ng isang chinese ang ilang daang sako ng NFA rice.Maliwanag pa sa sikat ng araw na kaya nagkukulang ang bansa sa bigas ay dahil ang NFA rice na galing sa gobyerno ay ipinupuslit ng mga nangangalaga upang ibenta sa mga dayuhang mamumuhunan.SA KAHULIHULIHAN, ang dapat sisihin una ay ang mga magsasakang pumapayag na kontratahin ng mga dayuhang mamumuhunan, mga negosyanteng gahaman at mga nakaupo sa puwesto o ang mga nagtatrabaho mismo sa NFA.
Bigas ang isa lamang sa mga pangunahing pangangailangan ng mga Pinoy.Kung ang presyo nitoy lalo pang tumaas, lalong marami ang magugutom at marami ang kakapit sa patalim para lamang may maihulog sa kanilang mga kumakalam na sikmura.Nakakabuwisit talaga ang presyo ng bigas sa tuwing maalala ko.Sa kabilang banda ng aking utak, ang gobyernong Arroyo ang sinisisi ko sapagkat poro pangungurakot-mga nawawalang pondo na di maipaliwagag ang nakabalandra sa kanyang imahe simula ng malukluk sya sa kanyang pwesto sa halip na gumawa sya ng hakbang upang suportahan ang mga magsasaka, dinggin ang kanilang mga karaingan at upang magkaroon ng isang masaganang ani ang bansa. Mayaman ang Pilipinas sa lupaing agrikultura subalit hindi rin naman napapakinabangangan sapagkat ang pamahalaan mismo ay wala rin namang pakialam!!!!
Mayaman din ang bansa sa mga matatalinong tao-mga imbentor halimbawa subalit sa kawalang suporta ng pamahalaan, mas nauna pang iba ang nakikinabang at kumilala kaysa sa sariling bayan.

Philippine Politics...Useless!!!!

2008-02-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

Madalas tuwing panahon ng eleksyon sumasagi sa aking isipan kung bakit pinaalis natin ang mga dayuhang Amerikano sa ating teritoryo.Mahaba habang panahon na ring tayong malaya ngunit napatunayan ba nating kaya na nating mag isa? Magmasid ka na lamang sa iyong paligid at makikita mo ang kasagutan.Maruming pulitika ang namamayani sa ating bansa sa ngayon.Talamak ang suhulan at korapsyon sa lahat ng uri ng tanggapan ng gobyerno, lalo pang nababaon sa kahirapan ang mga mahihirap na mamamayan, umaabot ng ilang taon bago matapos ang isang kaso, nagbabatuhan ng putik ang mga nakaupo sa puwesto sa halip na magtulungan at higit sa lahat ginagawang negosyo ang pulitika ng mga pulitiko.

Ipinagbunyi natin ang kasarinlan para mapabuti ang bayan subalit ang naging bunga'y lalo pang napasama.Iniiwas natin ang ating bayang apihin ng mga dayuhang Amerikanong magbibigay ng kaginhawahan upang magkaroon ng dignidad at sariling paninindigan para lamang gutumin, pahirapin at ilugmok lalo sa putikan ng buwaya sa sariling bayan.

Walang sinumang Pulitiko ang magbibigay ng kaluwagan sa kabuhayan para sa inang bayan hanggat utak ng isang bobong pinoy ang namamahala sa bansa.Papaano naman maresolba ang krisis ng bayan kung ang programa ng pamahalaan ay para sa ikabubuti ng iilan lamang at di ng buong bayan. Ang umupo sa kanyang puwesto at magpabango ng pangalan sa iilang tao-ang tumulong na pakainin sila sa sarili niyang pinggan sa halip na turuan silang maghanap ng kanilang sariling ikabubuhay na pang habang buhay mawala man siya sa kanyang kinauupuan?

Ang pagiging isang pangulo'y napakabigat na responsibilidad para sa isang mabuting mamamayan. Subalit isang madaling tungkulin para sa isang magnanakaw ng bayan. Ito'y nangangailangan ng malalim at matalinong pagpaplanong pakikinabangan ng lahat nang walang anumang kahit kaunting pansariling hangarin.Isang proyektong hindi nagangailangan ng agad agarang resulta kundi dahan dahan tungo sa kaunlaran ng bansa. Tanging isang pinunong may maka siyensyang pananaw lamang ang makagagawa nito. Kung hindi'y daragdagan n'ya lamang ang pagkakautang ng inang bayan sa ibang bansa.Pag nagkagayon magmula nang magsarili ang bansa hanggang ngayon, patuloy na magiging walang halaga ang pulitika sa mga pangkaraniwang mamamayan sa Pilipinas.

By Cybermind

My 2007 Post-Whats Life and Hay Buhay!!!

Yahoo Answers

2007-12-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

Autumn in my Heart (Reason) Tagalog version

2007-12-08T15:31:00.001+08:00

Endless Love (Autumn in my Heart) - tagalog

2007-12-08T15:21:00.001+08:00

Endless Love Winter Sonata-My memory tagalog

2007-12-08T15:20:00.001+08:00

Face Down lyrics - by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

2007-12-08T14:08:00.003+08:00

I love this

Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

2007-12-07T17:33:00.001+08:00

This is my favorite songs...I love it so much. Everytime I am in front of a computer screen I always used this as my background music.Maganda kasi.Di ko lang alam kung kailan ako masasawa.hehehehe.....

What's Life

2007-12-05T09:00:00.000+08:00

Sa tuwing maglalakad ako pauwi mga 10:00 pm di ko maiwasang isipin kung kailan ako magiging ganito ang buhay. Nagsikap akong mag aral ngunit hanggang ngayon ay isa pa ring hamak na empleyado sa isang maliit na computer shop.

Sa probinsya, sa tuwing uuwi ako maraming mga pagbabagong nangyayari. Yong ka-batch ko nong High School, isa na palang Elementary teacher.Yong iba naman, may kanya kanya nang pamilyang binubuhay. Hindi ko man sila nakita ngunit itoy ayun na lang sa mga kuwento ng aking kapatid. Siguro kung Education ang kinuha ko, isa na rin akong teacher ngayon.Ayaw ko kasi munag makulong sa apat na sulok ng silid aralan habang buhay.Biruin mo naman, 6 years in Elementary, 4 years in High School and then 4 years in college tapos paaralan pa rin ang babagsakan mo after graduation?Nais ko namang maranasan ang buhay sa labas, ang umakyat ng elevator papasok ng trabaho. Nais ko namang maranasan ang mabuhay ng nag iisa at malayo sa pamilya, malayo sa lugar na aking sinilangan. Ayaw ko na kasing maranasan ang maggapas ng palay at magbilad sa init ng sikat ng araw. Maliit pa akoy hindi iyon ang aking pinapangarap kaya naman pinaghandaan ko ang aking paglaki-ang aking pakikibaka sa hamon ng buhay.Pero ang lahat ng paghahandang yon ay nauwi lang sa wala ang lahat nang mamulat ang aking isipan sa tunay na kalagayan ng buhay at kalagayan ng bansa na aking kinabibilangan. Bumagsak sa lupa ang matatayog kong pangarap sa aking mga magulang at kapatid nang dahil sa kawalan ng magandang trabaho.Nagtaasan ang mga bilihin at pang matrikula habang lumilipas ang panahon. Lalo tuloy kaming nabaon sa kahirapan. Kahit ano pa mang pagsisikap ang aking gawin wala pa ring mangyayari, isang kahig isang tuka pa rin hanggang ngayon.Masakit mang isipin ngunit ito ang katotohanan, uulitin ko lang ang ang nakagisnan kong buhay sa aking mga magulang hanggang sa pagtanda.

Ngayon malimit kong itanong sa aking sarili, naging mabuti akong anak, nag aral ng maigi, saan ba ako nagkamali? Ako gayon din ang ibang nakapagtapos sino pa ba ang dapat naming sisihin?Hindi bat ang kasalukuyang pamahalaan?Sa edad kong ito makakahanap pa ba ako ng trabaho?Bakit kailangang may age limit? Hindi naman ganon nong mga panahon pa ni Marcos? Nong kapanahunan pa ng aking mga magulang, kahit anong edad basta't kaya mo at alam mo ang trabaho makakapasok ka.Napakadali ding makarating ng ibang bansa pagkat hindi mahigpit sa mga kinakailangang dokumento. Pero ngayon butas na nga ang bulsa mo sa kababayad ng tuition fee sayong pag-aaral, sisimutin pa ng pamahalaan ang bulsa mo makuha mo lamang angmga kinakailangan dokomento sa paghahanap ng trabaho. Tapos kapag wala ka pang backer as in malakas na kapit sa aaplayan mo, malabo ka pang makapasok. Ang masama pa dun, expired na lang ang mga requirements mo wala ka pa ring trabaho! Kaya ayun naturingan ka ngang nakatapos, palamunin ka pa rin ng magulang.

Masaklap ngunit yan ang katotohanan..., hindi lamang ako ang nakakaranas, marami kami...mga naghihintay at umaasa sa isang magandang bukas.

Hay buhay!

2007-12-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

Isa lamang ako sa maraming mga taga probinsya na pinipilit abutin ang mga pangarap gamit ang talinong natutunan sa pag aaral.Nagsikap akong mag aral sa paniniwalang yong lang ang tanging pakpak ko sa pakikipagsapalaran, sukdulang magsunog kilay mapabilang lang sa top 5 at top 3 maipagmalaki lang ako ng aking magulang, masilayan ko lang ang ngiti ng kanilang pinaghirapan. Mahirap subalit kakayanin ko alang alang sa nga magulang kong binata ang hirap mapatapos lamang kaming magkakapatid.

Ngayong heto ako nagtitiyaga sa isang computer shop 150 a day.Kahit papaanoy nakakaraos sa pang araw-araw pati buwanang gastusin.Ang hirap pero heto buhay pa rin.

Ang hirap kasi mghanap ng trabaho.Oo nga't may pinag aralan ako kahit 2 year college course, naranasan ko ang trabahong janitor, merchandiser ng Del Monte products sa grocery, service crew ng Burger Machine sa COFC(Caloocan Area), at sa panaderya na taga hulma at tagaluto ng tinapay pero hindi iyon ang mga pinapangarap kong trabahong mag aahon sa amin sa kahirapan. Naranasan kong maglakad sa nagtataasang gusali ng Makati sa kahahanap ng address na nabasa ko sa classified adds sa dyaryo pero nagsayang lamang ako ng pamasahe at panahon.Napagod lang ako sa walang kabuluhang bagay.Kung bakit kasi yaong mga job hiring sa pilipinas eh kadalasan mga call center pa hinahanap.Buti sana kung lumaki ako sa America o nanirahan man lang ng kaunting panahon sa Amerika at natutu ang dila kong mamilipit sa kai-ingles.

Naalala ko pa noon ang sabi ko sa aking magulang na sa oras na makahanap ako ng trabaho'y kukunin ko ang aking kapatid upang pag aralin dito sa Maynila at pagkatapos yong nakatapos naman ang magpapaaral sa bunso.Madaling sabihin, madaling mangarap pero sa totoong buhay ang hirap pala.Kung minsan nga hindi ko na alam kung ano at saan ako kukuha ng makakain ko sa susunod na araw.

December na naman.Malapit na naman ang isang bagong taon.Magdaragdag na naman ng taon ang aking edad.Ang tanong?Nagbago ba ang takbo ng aking buhay?Paulit ulit lang ang lahat....nakakasawa na.Wala nang katapusan.

Pano naman ang mga pangarap ko?

By Cybermind

My Biography